Burdened. Burdensome. Angry in the simplest. The day is dark and heavy. Mom come look at the beautiful sunrise. I cant see their beauty anymore, not past the heaviness of my eyes & the exhaustion pounding in my head. But i stand there looking anyways. And there is magic there. A twinkle of hope. I know that at least. And no less i have that for one second or another.
I feel... shredded. Figure that one out..
I feel... a deep mourning for who i was and i dreadful love for who i am. She is gone and i miss her. never to be resurrected. She was sad too more so than she feels now but she has learned so much. She could have had so much. It was all wasted on the naivete. But she had no grand purpose other than to get me where i am. A stone is all she was. Then she had no reason to keep going other than sheer hope it would all change and all the will power you could dream of and now there is all the reasons in the world but no dream. No power. And A tinge of guilt. I am everything to everyone and nothingness to myself. For myself. She worked so hard to get here. Won every battle. Just to be put in an impossible circumstance. The ultimate case of Stockholm syndrome. Give every ounce away until there is mere crumbs left for yourself. Work every second of everyday until there is no time left to remember who you truly are. Keep going until the sanity forsakes you so you dont know how oppressed you really are. No reward but feel rewarded. Cheers to the death of everything you once were and everything you can no longer be. You are the world to someone, nothing to yourself, and broken only on the inside. The dream has passed but worry not because in 100 years nobody will even know you were here and you cherish it
“Then she had no reason to keep going other than sheer hope it would all change and all the will power you could dream of and now there is all the reasons in the world but no dream. No power. “
Stuck out to me like it was meant for me.
I don’t know why I don’t see that you posted until way later- but I FEEL these words right now and needed them now the most 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍
I feel.......
Burdened. Burdensome. Angry in the simplest. The day is dark and heavy. Mom come look at the beautiful sunrise. I cant see their beauty anymore, not past the heaviness of my eyes & the exhaustion pounding in my head. But i stand there looking anyways. And there is magic there. A twinkle of hope. I know that at least. And no less i have that for one second or another.
I feel... shredded. Figure that one out..
I feel... a deep mourning for who i was and i dreadful love for who i am. She is gone and i miss her. never to be resurrected. She was sad too more so than she feels now but she has learned so much. She could have had so much. It was all wasted on the naivete. But she had no grand purpose other than to get me where i am. A stone is all she was. Then she had no reason to keep going other than sheer hope it would all change and all the will power you could dream of and now there is all the reasons in the world but no dream. No power. And A tinge of guilt. I am everything to everyone and nothingness to myself. For myself. She worked so hard to get here. Won every battle. Just to be put in an impossible circumstance. The ultimate case of Stockholm syndrome. Give every ounce away until there is mere crumbs left for yourself. Work every second of everyday until there is no time left to remember who you truly are. Keep going until the sanity forsakes you so you dont know how oppressed you really are. No reward but feel rewarded. Cheers to the death of everything you once were and everything you can no longer be. You are the world to someone, nothing to yourself, and broken only on the inside. The dream has passed but worry not because in 100 years nobody will even know you were here and you cherish it
“Then she had no reason to keep going other than sheer hope it would all change and all the will power you could dream of and now there is all the reasons in the world but no dream. No power. “
Stuck out to me like it was meant for me.
I don’t know why I don’t see that you posted until way later- but I FEEL these words right now and needed them now the most 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍